idiot’s tale

On backing off

Sunday, January 17th, 2010

This Christmas Santa brought a heart rate monitor. Putting the pointy-headed intricacies of heart-rate training aside for a moment, what the numbers showed me was that my normal workout pace is a hair’s breadth away from my normal quitting pace.

Ask E, who trained with me most of last summer. Many of those workouts were shaded with intervals of sullen trudging, or once, my earnest threat to chuck an expensive titanium racing bike by the roadside and hitch-hike home. The solution has been to back off, keep my heart rate in check, and enjoy the scenery.

Fast forward several weeks to today: E, a friend and I finished our first half-marathon of 2010 at a respectable pace. I had fun, and could have kept going. At some point during the race–while running in wind and rain through the Willamette farmland–it struck me that ignoring a certain few of my writing goals would make me a much happier writer.

I have been looking for a better way to end my novel before re-submitting it to an agent, and been driving myself through a breakneck series of revisions since early December. But in order to rewrite the final two chapters, and to write them richly, I need to back off and enjoy the scenery.

Even if running is ultimately incomparable to creative writing, I suspect that this is probably right. As an editor as well as a writer, I know that rushing makes for empty fiction. Now for the test: Give me five writing days, and I’ll report back.

I give thanks for good readers.

Sunday, November 22nd, 2009

I’m blessed with some very good first readers. They’re all great writers and editors, and their responses helped me get out of my own head and tell a better story. I’m also blessed with a partner who is not a writer, and as I learned this week, that opinion is worth a manuscript’s weight in gold.

Every writer needs someone to treat the characters like people, and express dismay when they do things that pull their story off track. Every writer needs to know when the novel stops working, even if the reader can’t explain why. Sitting at the breakfast table yesterday, talking over sticky plates, a few leftover pumpkin pancakes and coffee, I learned that when all other revision efforts have failed, the best critiques sometimes look like a shrug, sound like an, “I didn’t get it, sorry,” and are offered with love.

So, now having more or less figured out what an agent was saying when she said the novel comes apart at the end, I am revising it one more time and will resubmit it in December, and send it to other agents if I can. I also have to clean up the synopsis of the next novel, so that while THE IDIOT’S TALE is on submission, I can make progress with something else. But first we have to eat sweet potato casserole and pie. Happy Thanksgiving.

…longed for the rhythmic pounding of the surf, and the salty sea air.*

Wednesday, September 30th, 2009
Pacific Street, Rockaway Beach, Oregon

Pacific Street, Rockaway Beach, Oregon

What news? Pending my annual, five-day writing retreat at Rockaway Beach, I wanted to update my blog in grand Internet fashion: using a lot of words to say, basically, nothing much. Reseach on Book 2 continues at a loping pace thanks to Matt Beynon Rees, the prolific former Jerusalem bureau chief for TIME, whose information-dense Website and Palestinian mystery novels are giving me a lot of reading to do.

The weeklong retreat is meant as a turbo-outlining session, which means I ought to know what the novel is actually about in ten days or fewer. However, an agent promised to send revision notes on THE IDIOT’S TALE, and if those show up before I shut down my e-mail for a week, I will instead be knitting loose seams in the novel’s final third — all the while burning palm leaves, chanting quietly, Dear God please let it be good enough.

What other news? I finished my longest bike ever, at 80 miles. I turned the heat on in my office for the first time. E and I made killer fajitas, grilled corn, and mulled cider. Hello, autumn.

* We continue with our nascent endeavor to title every post using narrative cliches.

And then the alarm went off, and the dream faded, and green numbers said it was time to get up.*

Tuesday, September 1st, 2009

At the beginning of August, I joked with Jeffrey Richards that we’d come to the month where we stop counting rejection letters, and just collect the out-of-office replies. Like the therapists, the literary agents go away–and so, it seemed, did my ambition. Four of my submissions are floating around greater Manhattan, and I haven’t done much about them. But Google Calendar just broke the news that it’s September.

E-mail submissions make the job practically an afterthought, so one can in theory stay on top of the process with only an hour’s work a week–browsing forthcoming titles, looking up listings on Publishers Marketplace and AgentQuery.com, and tweaking the query letter. Hit “send” and you’re done. That’s good news, because walking to the post office with a stack of envelopes containing My Manuscript made me feel like a a young Judy Davis in My Brilliant Career. Noob.

Meanwhile, for anyone who’s actually wondering: I’m working on the next novel, and set a deadline to slow down my research on October 6. (Slow it down? asks a voice. By that might you mean, “Put it in reverse?”). Anyway, the goal is to outline the plot during my week at the Colonyhouse, October 7-11, and begin writing sometime in November. I’ve been grappling with the problems of knowing what my characters will do but not who they are, and whether the novel should actually be set in Gaza, rather than kept in a speculative world.

And I’ve been camping. Running the trails in Forest Park. Going TV-shopping with E. Reading Audrey Niffenegger’s new novel. Writers are so boring from the outside.

* I wonder if it’s possible to title every post on this blog using narrative cliches.

Submissions update

Tuesday, August 4th, 2009

A partial manuscript and full manuscript submission are still pending, and the good news of a few weeks ago (a cold query that turned into a request for a partial) came back with a form rejection last week. It’s been two months since the conference, and I am now wondering if I should query the remaining four agents from Backspace–just to keep this search from stagnating, and to prevent the May 30 conference from sliding even further into the distant past.

I’ve heard conflicting opinions about submitting queries in August. The publishing industry goes on vacation, say some. But other agents say they use the quiet month to catch up on queries, and that it is actually a good time to submit work. Any writers out there have personal experience with this?

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